You are not alone.
You are not abandoned.
You are not wicked.
You are loved.
You are seen.
You are wanted. Still, always, forever.
As long as there is faith the size of a mustard seed in your heart you are a believer. But just as that mustard seed cannot grow of its own accord nor can your faith, you are not equipped to cultivate your faith on your own either. The loving and lovely thing about Christianity is that I cannot accomplish it without Christ. The whole thing falls apart in the heart of a human without God to hold it together. So we both get what we desire more than anything, relationship.
God does not punish me for my unbelief. In fact, His greatest desire is for me to bring those questions and doubt to Him. To let Him be the one that answers, not my friends, because like with Job they may mean well but have absolutely no clue what they are talking about (See Job 1, 4, 8, 11, 15, 18, 20, 22, 25, 32, 38). Like with Thomas He is the only cure for my unbelief (See John 20:24-27). And it is so like Him to take my foggy mist of doubt and carve it into a very clear cloud, shaped just like Him.
Heavenly Father in this season of questions, doubt and confusion please draw me closer. I choose now to draw closer to You. May this temporary fog bring You more glory as it causes me to reach for Your hand and sharpen my other senses. If I am unable to hear You may I see Your mighty power at work everywhere. If I am unable to see Your magnificence help me feel Your love and grace more keenly than I ever have in my life. Please use this time to reset me, renew, restore, revive me. “Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me...” Sculpt my fog so that I recognize Your presence in it, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Have fun cloud watching,
Ina
Jesus Girl 