Sometimes the mountain is in me. I’m pushing and praying and struggling to change my circumstances outside, but when the physical circumstances change I feel equally as frustrated, numb, or broken. Sometimes it isn’t a thing outside that needs to change, sometimes it’s me. An opinion, a scar, a way of doing things that may have worked well before, but that tension inside is the Holy Spirit’s way of saying “Ok, you can let go now.” Time passes and the gentle urging becomes stronger. As it’s strength increases the prompt feels more like “No, really release this now or it will hurt you” or “It is imperative you hear this warning. Danger Will Robinson”
I have come to love God more every time I experience this. The experience itself is obviously not fun, but it reminds me of the precious importance of my relationship with Christ. He loves me, specifically and wants me to succeed. He makes it a point to make me my best self, for Him. For His glory. I’m a part of something much bigger than me. Even if the warning doesn’t move me to action the knowledge of God’s love and plan for me always does. I pray it always will.
Lord God please move the mountain in me, or move me as the mountain, but either way have Your way in Jesus’ name, Amen.
Jesus Girl 